So I have one week left in NUS..for now that is..
There's so much uncertainty around. Some of my friends are leaving and I might never see them again. I don't really know what to do with my short holidays and all the holiday plans came to nought for one reason or other. Work starts in a month's time and frankly speaking, I'm filled with dreadful anticipation on whether I can make the mark.
After four grueling years in NUS I still feel that I don't know anything when I graduate. There has been some experience and modules taken, but in terms of real knowledge I seem to have forgotten everything. Back to basics, it seems. To the fundamentals. I've gotta hit the books again. This one is for my survival..
But there're things to look forward to. A paycheck for once. :) And the MM chalet should be fun. Oh, and the German Sunday Brunch! There's gonna be so much food and Bier! And some quality time chilling at home and re-decorating my room. I'd go to the beach again, and sip magheritas. And reading, definitely reading. I've got to revive this passion I've lost so long ago.
I only hope that there's somebody I can share it all with. My good times, and my trying ones. :)
I am really gettin' into the mood to study. Somehow enjoying the learning process. After endless months of meeting project deadlines, it's refreshing to finally have time to just read my books.
Hope this diligent streak withstands the temptations of CnC3 :)
This is absolutely AWESOME!!!
And it's just the demo. Can't wait to get my hands on the game now. Havent been this excited over a game for a long long time.
C&C3 here i come! Oh yea, and will try to study in between missions. :)
Planet Earth by the BBC is sooo beautiful, I could hardly stop gaping at the stunning photography the past hour. Those images of cascading waterfalls, mighty rivers and tranquil plains brought back the joy I recall when I was studying Geography in secondary school.
I wish I were in those lands, reveling in the beauty of Mother Nature. My wanderlust is picking up again. I hope I have a chance this lifetime to travel so widely, taking in the sights with my own eyes.
Yet somehow I feel so insignificant, like a tiny speck of dust existing in a flash of the Earth's entire history. And here's me stumbling around, trying to make sense of my life and the people around me. Feeling stressed at not getting work done; feeling like I'm all alone in the world.
I should snap out of this and live my life to the fullest in all its glory. And travel more.
Forgive me, I always feel very inspired after I watch documentaries. :)
I think I'm done here. I've got to try to move on..
Have you ever had the nagging feeling that seems to be a communication barrier separating you from the outside world? That you keep trying to talk to one friend after another but get nothing in reply?
It seems like everyone suddenly disappeared.
I know there's a virus in my computer but I have no idea it's this powerful. Maybe I should check the antenna on the roof. Or the Cable box. Or myself to see if I'm in the right universe dimension.
The silence continues...
No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here - nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you.
Let
me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you..
Say you love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you
Now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you...
Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light.
You're safe - no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you...
All I want is freedom
A world with no more night...
And you always beside me
To hold me and to hide me...
Then say you'll share with me
One love, one lifetime...
Let me lead you from your solitude...
Say you need me with you
Here, beside you...
Anywhere you go, let me go too
That's all I ask of you...
Say you'll share with me
One love, one lifetime...
Say the word
And I will follow you...
Share each day with me
Each night, each morning...
Say you love me
You know I do
Love me
That's all I ask of you...
Anywhere you go
Let me go too...
Love me
That's all I ask of you...
I think I have been extraordinarily blessed to be with some wonderful friends..
Friends who pull me up when I was down in the doldrums; friends who work beside me relentlessly, helping me out when I had completely lost all faith; and friends who are there to celebrate with when it's all over.
It has been a very long journey and I wouldn't have found the strength to keep going if not for you. I could never have done it alone, and you showed me how to perservere. You showed me the light at the end of the tunnel.
Thank you, and cheers to you all!
The past week has been insane. Lots of important deadlines came and went. Things are moving so fast I don't even know where I'm heading. And one by one, the things that were constantly on my mind have come to a close.
It's like a chapter of my life is ending. I can feel it. And somehow many things will never be the same again.
Something is ending, and something else is starting. I don't like transitions. They're often too painful for me..filled with reminiscence and sometimes, helplessness that I didn't do more. People tell me it's okay. I don't have an easy time getting over myself.
So I try to put everything down and pull myself forward, alone into the unknown.
I don't know if there's anything I can hold on to..or count on..anymore...
Peace corps? No wayyy..I like being a geek! :)
